What shall I say ?

What shall I say ...

I mean when I see Jesus on his birth ....

mmm let me try to phrase it ...

" I have been waiting for you " ... no not working ...

Shall I lie to myself ...

Have I been waiting for Jesus ...???

No .. actually .. I wasn't .....

I need him .. yes ..

But did I want him ... No ...

I know I need him ...

And I know he wants me .....

But still .. I don't want him ...

For now at least ..

Maybe later ...

But he is coming ..

Coming for me ....

I think I should try another sentence ..

" Do I deserve that you come for me ? "

I know I don't .. I don't lie this time..

But he came for me ..

He wants my salvation ...

I think that to be honest I should say ....

" Thank You"

" You have done a lot to me .. and I didn't deserve"

" You still want me "

" Teach me to not forget your sacrifice for me "